Wednesday, July 11, 2012
I would not label myself as a joyous individual. In truth, I struggle most days to keep my mind clear of anxiety, regret, hateful thoughts, and depression. I have periods now and then when I can keep my demons at bay, but they are never further away than arm's length. However, over the past few months, I have found myself in a state of hopelessness that has gone beyond what I normally face, both in terms of its depth and its duration. I have been experiencing a weariness of body, mind, and soul that I fear is too much to overcome. I am not even certain that I can pinpoint the root cause of my malaise. Likely several small sparks have ignited this seemingly consuming blaze. I can only hope that all this will bring some ultimate benefit, like a forest fire that clears away the old unhealthy overgrowth and debris, allowing for soil that is cleared and revitalized for new growth.
Don't stop thinking about tomorrow ...
Posted by Daniel